Word for word texts between Ricky and me this morning while he's at the office:
Me: I keep thinking about my bad dream and I'm feeling way depressed. I've been totally tearing up about it. Not kidding! People leave their spouses all the time and marry someone else! That's a reality in some peoples' lives! Promise that would never happen to us. Promise you'll never want to be with another single soul.
Much anticipated expectation:
Ricky: My sweet Mer, how could you even allow yourself to entertain those thoughts?? It's just ridiculous! You are the absolute epitome of everything I've ever wanted or will ever want. You are all ANY man could ever want. I wish I were there right now to hold you and tell you how much I love you and that there will never ever be another woman on earth who could ever compare to you in any way. Sometimes I just lay in bed and watch you sleep, and you're just so darn adorable when you sleep. Especially when you're heavy with child, our child, our miracle; pillow stuffed under your belly and in between your legs and every other crevice possible. And for some reason you're more prone to drool when you're pregnant. And it is just SO. STINKIN. CUTE!!! I mean, talk about CUTE! It all makes me love you just that much more. You are simply stunning when pregnant, and all the extra pounds you put on all over your body just drive me so crazy!! I just love having more of you to love!!! So while I'm laying there I think to myself, "How did I ever get so lucky? I am the luckiest man who's ever lived." And I have to pinch myself right then and there! And I really do it! I pinch myself, honey!! (It's kinda embarassing so don't tell anyone, but I'll show you the pinch marks on my arms! So silly!!) To make sure I'm not dreaming and living the life of some other unbelievable man who's stumbled across the greatest fortune in the universe. But I'm not dreaming. And it's all because of you. Every wish I've ever had in life, you have made and continue to make a reality for me every single day.
Reality:
Ricky: Ok I promise.
I stared blankly at my phone for no less than 37 seconds.
Okay. Phew. That was easy! I can go on with my day now! I don't have to be mopey and dramatic because I dreamt Ricky ran away with another woman! So silly! I don't have to care because he told me he was happier than he'd ever been in his life with her!! I don't have to be sad because he told me our Veggie Delight was going to be the flower girl at their beach wedding! Or when he said that he knew it was kinda hard for me but be still really wanted me at the wedding because he wanted to stay friends! What a hoot! I could tell at the record pace at which he responded, that there was a lot of thought put into his text. There was a lot of sincere emotion behind it. And just like that, with just three little words I'm the queen of the world again. And here I was feeling sad about it. Here I was letting those hormones get the best of me. Silly, silly me.
*Forgive the repeated mention of my dreams the last several months. They are running/ruining my life right now.*
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